possibly done this too?

YEAH! Well here I am....bad mummy as life just too exciting to try and catch up with it "black on white" we had been to Romania which was amazing and a little bit about this please read on Reuben's blog here http://www.reubenandthesmiths.blogspot.co.uk/2014/05/romania.html
But since we had come back things have been good and bad too. Zac is very strong willed....he really does know how to protest and also he does things his own way. I remember there was difficulties with Reuben too when 4 but I guess I have forgotten a lot of what went on having been very busy trying to fit in, do things by the book and finally admit defeat. With Zac I had realised some time ago that he is NO REUBEN and he also has a different way of relating to the world. Reuben was adventurous and curious while Zac is interested in detail and often loves if we just linger in the moment for some time.

Every morning when I drop him at nursery  (3 days a week) I feel terribly defeated because I know this wasn't something for Zac but I had to be tough and put him through the anxiety of separation and more because life is not often about what we want but what we can and are presented with....HE still has bad days and good days when saying goodbye to me but thankfully another 6 weeks and we will end that era!

Stubbornness you can say it again...yes! Bloody HELL can this child send us round the bend (oh yeah) and contrary to a lot of people who know Zac and think they would be able to handle him after terrorising him for a while....HE DOES RESPOND TO GENIUINE LOVE AND CARE like most of us. I know people think I am too soft with him and too patient and such but I know and understand because I had carried him for much longer than the 9 months (4 of those total stress and worry). He was destined for living and he is a FIGHTER I know he will be achieving big things because he is so so determined and stubborn and different. but lets just wait and see.

Yap, lets not forget Zac is still not fully potty trained....its been long coming. Having had partly managed last year during summer to wee he has regressed and upon investigation we realised he actually has a rare bowel problem. We do not know weather this is linked to the abnormalities predicted at 6 months scans but we are more and more aware that he is indeed having incredible pain and difficulty with his poo. He has completed a very drastic treatment of nearly 6 months of medication to regulate his bowel movements and now still on medication which is much gentler.

I wasn't going to put pressure on him with regards to potty training however knowing we are going to be around this half term and weather being so rainy and cold we have decided to stay in and give potty training a go. We are 4 days in...a few accidents but generally using potty and toilet too...unless too excited or too engrossed in IPADS.

Weather I succeed or not or we manage this or not I will still think my boy is pretty amazing. He has had a very adventurous 4 years not forgetting he wasn't even meant to be given a chance to live....he is with us and he loves life that alone is enough for me. I remember with Reuben I used to feel the need to tick those developmental boxes to make those announcements about the milestones with Zac I am glad to see him with us alive and kicking all the rest is a bonus and more. I know he will do it in his time....all children do. I remain in awe of this monkey he is totally mine, totally crazy and amazing he gives us a boost of energy and makes us grateful of life each day. I am cheering him on we all do!! I will never forget his coming into this life...his three in one ops and just his battle with his bowel problems....he is soldiering on....he doesn't give up....he is a real STAR!