NO NOT ZAC ITS A REUBEN!

NO we did not give bith to Zac yet!!! This is Reuben who was eyeing up for a while the crib that I have not managed yet to take upstairs and Sunday he was so excited he decided to try it out! My lovely friend Angeline has given us the crib so I am watching it and looking after it hence I am seen in the picture. Reuben has finally agreed to acknowledge there is a baby comming and often points at my tummy and says baby and makes baby crying sounds...I do hope Reuben you are not prophecyizig!? a crying baby....IT was hard enough having you not sleeping and being a crancky kido....still....I thought this was sweet. THe other funny thing was that although we had been given that mobile above the crib Reuben was first facinated with it then he decided his singing was better. Although he hates Twinkle twinkle little star he made up his own little song...ahhhhh:))

NEm meg nem szuletett meg Zack! Ez it kerem a draga Reuben aki par npja nagyon nezi ezt a bolcso kisagyat a babanak es Vasarnap bele kerozott...! Draga baratnom Angelina adta nekunk ezt kolcson es meg nem volt idom folvinni a szobaba ill nem birtam egyedul ezert a folyoson van. Reuben nagyon elvezte ki nem akart jonni sot a kisagy folott van egy eneklo kis valami az sem akarta hallni ugyanis o maga enekelt es kozbe magat altatta...nagyon jo pofa volt. A heten a draga fiam vegre mar magatol megnezi a hasam vagy ramutat es mondja BABY es sirdogal (teszi magat) ami remelem nem profecia ugyanis eleget halottam ot sirni olyan hoszu ideig hogy azt hiszem ha nem hallok siro gyerekeket soha tobbett akkor id tudni fogom es hallani akaratlanul is viszaemlekezve Reubenre. Nagyon szeretnek egy nyugodtabb babat nem egy noveny babat ahogy mondjak hanem csak egy nyugisabbat es jobban alvot ugyanis Reuben....hat na nem akarom leirni szegenyt de rendesen megkinozott bennunket mind. NA meglassuk....egyelore betoltottuk a 36 hetet es belptunk a 37 hetbe! Meg 2 jo bo het es jon a baba......ajaj remeljuk nem jon hamarabb:)) az lenne aztan meglepi.

HOSPITAL BAG READY AND 36 weeks yesterday!

Hello! Here is a picture of me...cooking dinner...looking glam:)) feeling like a huge ballooooon!
Well, this week I managed to get my hospital bag ready....in case Zack decides to come early...I also been feeling reather unwell. Particularly yesterday Tuesday am I was so fed up with being alone with R and he was so naughty and tired and difficult....I was only too happy to take him to nursery at 12ish to come home and sleep. I don;t know but I felt so tired....and clumsy I just ended up in bed. INterestingly TUesday evening then R fell asleep very very quick after which we crashed too and I was asleep all night ....are my nights getting better?! I hope so!!!
this week so far has been up and down...mainly I have felt very unwell physically and tired and exhausted mentally...so I hope by the weekend I will feel a bit better and can do something nice with Roo Roo as he calls himself!!
Sziasztok! Itt egy ma keszult kep...eppen vacsrat keszitek...es nagyon jol nezek ki:))) habar ugy erzem magam mint egy irto nagy balon! Ezen a heten elkeszult a korhazi potyaszom....ha megis hamarabb jon Zack...es elegge roszul ereztem magam....Kedden reggel foleg nehez reggelem delelottom volt alig vartam vihessem Reubent oviba 12 kor es egyenesen haza jottem az agyba kialudni magam....ami sikerult is. Kedd este megfurodtem meg egyszer fiammal aki nagyon elvezi az egyutt furdest es ara gondoltam mivel aludtam delutan biztosan fent leszek sokaig de nem miutan R elaludt 1o perc alatt ki idore ra mi is elmentunk aludni es ataludtam az ejszakat!! Ez nagy dolog ugyanis reg nem aludtam egy ejszakat at! NEm tudom ez akkor most azt jelenti konnyebbulnek ejszakaim de REMENYKEDEM! Ezen a heten nem jol ereztem magam fizikailag de lelkileg is ill nagyon faradt nak es oszetortnek ereztem magam....remelem hetvegere kicsit jobban leszek ugyanis szeretnek valami szep et kitalalni Ru Ru nak ahogy o magat hivja hogy legyen valami erdekes is...mar.

35 weeks and 1 months from giving birth to Zack!

Here is our sweet Zack thinking....its a 3D picture that I have received Thursday I was 34 weeks going on 35! The images revealed a very sweet little baby and I am so looking forward to see my little Zack. He wriggles a lot as in to say don;t forget me mummy I am here!!:) A months today we will meet hopefully all being well. I am saying that because some of the abnormalities are back according to the consultant but...I know God has the upper say and hand in all and so I am hoping he knows whats best for us. Its been such a hard long and limbo, rollercoster journey carrying this boy and I hope the difficulties we encountered will be the ones that one day will make him strong and able to fight for LIFE!! I have many thoughts about him and even though I am somehow less prepared for his arrival then I was for Reuben's less organised I feel prepared somewhat emotionally and spiritually. A lot of questions are running through my mind daily and especially at night I really don;t know what will come and its all scary but hopefully one step at the time we will be progressing towards the bigger picture!

Par kep amit a heten kaptam az orvosoktol amikor ujra vizsgaltak Zack ot!- hat nem valami jo hirrel szolgaltak ugyanis meg mindeg latnak rendellenesegeket de mivel mahoz egy honapra mar remelejuk megszuletik es akkor kivizsgalasokra is sor kerul es remeljuk hogy tobbett megtudunk. A Consultans olyat is mondott hogy van olyan gyerek aki ateli ezeket a rendellenesegeket masok meg szulesteskor feladjak ami ugye orvos szajabol kicsit furan hangzik es elegge ilyeszto de en tudom azt Isten nel van a vegso szo kimondasa elet vagy halal es o az aki dontenni fog ugy ahogy o jonak latja! Persze sok sok kerdes van bennem es sok sok aggodalom foleg hogy ugy erzem abszolut nem vagyok ugy neki keszulve az egesz mindenre mint voltam Reubennel viszont nem ez szamit hogy van e eleg ruhacska, baba kocsi, cumis uveg hanem van e kello szeretett es beke a szivben ami talan most tobb van vagy valahogy ugy latom ezen a teren jobban rakeszultem....hogy hogyan is lesznek a dolgok abszolut fogalmam sincs sot nem is tudom elkepzelni de azt tudom egy egy lepessel talan kozelebb leszek a NAGYOBB KEPHEZ es ez a fontos! Hat most csak ennyit!

Hello! Now is it rude or is it not so nice to show your tummy when pregnant?! According to people of Chatham if you got it you flant it but really talking to people like for example my mother in law and her generation it is like showing your private bits therefore not very nice or polite and it certainly does not vouch for inteligent people. So what shall I do? Well, since I can understand both those who think its the most beautiful thing in the world carrying a baby ( a bit like we love watching baby kanguroo's being carried by their mummies?!). Also, I guess there are many man and women who are not carrying babies but have imense bellies (I totally understand those who suffer medical conditions...however these are not the ones I am mentioning) and if we are inclined to be kind to them and such why do we criticise women who are only showing something that is a miracle really?!!and only for a relativley short period of time? I come from the culture where yes, you keep it wrapped up or under cover however I lately gotten thinking about this matter. People often feel the need to touch pregger's bellies now why on earth is that?!!- Is it that its such an amazing thing and they unconciously want to be part of it?! Or is it that people deep down know that it should be exposed and looked at and admired?!Or is it just a culture that no one can stop happening because they know nothing better to replace it with.
During my pregnancies I had several man tell me how gorgeous I looked how they found me sexi...now what is that all about?! (I know I am open and perhaps they felt safe enough to tell me this just like that... but hellooooooo what is this?) I am strating to think that maybe the subject of pregnant women and their belongings need to be explored more thoroughly by Brits but not only. The wierdest thing I had been asked by a man recently was : would you please let me have some breastmilk when you have your baby?! luckily I was holding on to a puschair at the time and I know him well not to have fainted...but really what is that all about. To his defence he is single very single, loves kids and the idea of families and being middle age (that makes it worse doesn;t it) I guess there must be a sense of not wanting to miss out...! But really to be honest
with all my best willing I think the answer to that question is NO. There are private things and there are things that one can make public...and there should be a line just there is a line in everything else in life. Back to bumps and weather they should be exposed...I believe its a intimate and private matter. If someone feels they can and feel able to for all the right reasons they should cause if criticism hits them they will cope with it well....others should not do it if they are not up for dealing with the negatives of it. Its a bit like breastfeeding...(:)) for some its the most natural and ok thing to do weather on a bus, in a caffee, your house ....while for others its like the worst nightmere in the world and they feel it makes them feel rather like cows and animals...:)) phewwww that is certainly another issue that one should tackle...if they must...

Well, my belly is mine and I decided to show it to you all because I think it is a nice one and a big one....my first one was strange cause it was the first one...this feels more natural and although big and uncomfortable its mine part of me and part of the miracle of making!:)
There is another reason of course that people might feel the need to expose it and take pictures, moulds of it etc....remember I am 5 weeks away from giving birth and when you get to this stage...you look down see something but only from one angle....and you kind a become used to it and then wonder just how it looks from other angles?! Ah well now I know....

Poor Zack in there...have not said much about you sweety but I am longing to see you and meet you and hold you and be amazed by you. I love you inside out!:)))

Not the most flattering picture I know. I am after a long day and very tired!

Well, here I am 34 weeks preggers only 6 weeks until baby should make the appearence but considering I am having a elective ceaserian we are looking at probably 4-5 weeks. ....and then there is this feeling inside that he will come early anyway....can;t explain why and how but I do not think my body can take the 5 weeks. I am exhausted and shattered. NIghts are hard can;t sleep as either have restless legs, restless baby in my tummy or indigestion or or or or the list goes on! I seem to be out of this world around 10-12 am in the mornings or if I get to nap with Reuben. I am looking forward to welcome Zack however have no hospital bag ready....nor have I done any nesting but I am itching to do it...

As we have been in Romania that time was consacrated to rest and spiritual recharging but now I am back I am concentrating on decluttering and sprting and nesting and off course spending some quality time with Reuben. We are delighted that MAMA (granny Boros) has decided to come and stay with us 6 weeks or so around the time baby will come...so that should be really really special. This week on Wednesday I am finding out exact date when we are gona see the insider for the first time. Until then hopefully weather will clear so we can attend nursery and do the things we have planned and written lists of!:))

Will be back soon!

Mx

32 weeks

Hello! Reporting I am now 32 weeks preggers!:)) Baby Zack is as active as always...except now its visible too when he moves! I continue to struggle to sleep during the night but thanks God we are on holiday and often I can sleep during the day with R! I have come to believe that this is gona continue during the rest of my pregnancy and now I am only 8 weeks away and if I get home I shall find out the exact day of bringing him out as its going to be by C section.

Christmas day (last week) we have taken this photo visiting y brother's new church in Hungary and I was shocked to see how big I was. Scary but true. I am home and I love it. I have nothing important to do...I lounge around and meet people...mum makes yummy food if not we buy yummy cakes and such....no wonder I am fat! I feel I am exploding....my ribs hurt and my feet and legs started swelling up! Today I had a lovely pedicure and manicure and tomorrow some more pampering...should be fun or nice!

only another 6-7 days here.....R is slowly getting used to it. Nowadays he comes and cuddles the belly and also he kisses it....so sweet!

29 weeks today!

Hello! We are officially 29 weeks today!

THe sleeplessness continues and indigestion, various pains and aches and generally joint problems. Restless legs are getting worse and I guess I get so exhasuted then I would like to sleep for England.

Zack is forever the active monkey especially when I am deep asleep or about to fall asleep. Highly not amusing when you think....its like I would have a cat inside or a jumping bunny rabbit (ha ha this makes me laugh....please do not think Anne Summers) anyway we are surviving it ok....however I get frustrated that I feel things are getting harder to execute such as picking this up the floor or carrying R in my arms. He gets frustrated poor old Reuben cause he can not sit on my abdomen but he has to shaffle his bum to my side which kills me anyway....

I eat a lot out of sheer frustration and I feel my belly is as stiff as a rock and often very itchy which must mean its expanding. I really really am hopeing the next 10 weeks go very quickly. I am due the 23 rd of Feb but normally they do C section 10 days early so bring it on....should be 13-14th Feb, I hope to avoid Valentines day! At this stage in my pregnancy with R I was swimming nearly every day and walking for miles....sorting out things and very very active....now I just want to lie down all the time.

Sziasztok! 29 hetunket tapossuk...maradok a nem alvassal, a gyomor egessel, a lab fajdalmakkal, egyre nehezebb folszednem dolgokat a foldrol sot kiejtek dolgokat kezembol...nagyon frusztralo...mintha hasam jarna elottem mindeg. Kisfiam Zack nagyon aktiv az az erzesem egy majom van bennem vagy egy nyuszi allanodan olyan erzesem van ugral kimondottan es nem tud feszkelodni mint annak idejen Reuben. Neha annyira mozofg/ugral hogy az az erzesem kinyomja a hasam. Biztosan tudom ilyet nem eltem at Reubennel. Ezek a mozgasok kimondottan nagyon hatarozottak es persze legtoszor akkor jut eszebe amikor eppen elaludni kesuzlok vagy lepihenek....abban a remenyben hogy talan el is alszom. Van hogy hetekig 2-3 orat alszok egy ejjel ugyhogy aztan ugy kifaradok hogy angliat is kialudnam ha tudnam. Olyan frusztralt vagyok allanodan ennek. A hasam nagyon feszes es ko kemeny allanodan....nagyon sokat viszket ami gondolom azt jelenti egyre novunk. Reuben frusztralt hogy nem tud normalisan olembe ulni inkabb hogy hasamra sem ulhet...sot meg ha olembe is fogom ha eppen megyunk valahova szegey agyon feszkelodik mert a megszokott mar nincs...sajnalom is ot ezert de azzal vigasztalom o mar nagy fiu....

feb 23 ara vagyok kiirva de szerintem 10 nappal hamarabb lesz a szules szokas szerint ami azt jelenti hogy 13-14 ere varjuk de remenykedem nem eppen Valentin napra esik....jaj!

Hat ennyit mara!